So I just got back from trying again. Trying what? Trying to go to a bar.
Tonight was Ullr Fest at Jack’s. In support of the telemark ski club, you could pay 5 dollars and get a ticket for prizes, and listen to some great live music. All great things I like. So why did the bar thing fail again?
It’s just not my thing. I’m saturated with an awkward feeling from the moment I step through the door of any bar. I don’t know many people there, and the people I do know are hanging out with their friends, or busy with their respective Ullr Fest duties. Sure, I could try and mingle, but it doesn’t work well, mostly because of the awkward saturation thing and the fact that I can’t carry on a conversation with anybody more than a foot away because I can’t fucking hear them.
So I went, and I tried for an hour. I promised myself that I would really try and enjoy myself, but if I wanted to leave at the end of that hour, I would let myself. So here I am and it’s probably a good thing. The noise would have just gotten louder, I would have been surrounded by even more people I didn’t know, and without alcohol the awkwardness would have consumed me. I sure as hell wasn’t going to spend what little money I had with me on drinks, nor would it have been healthy for me to drink as much as I would have needed to relax.
It looks like another night of movies and going to bed alone for me. I’ll change this one day, I will. But today just isn’t the day.
12/11/2006 at 4:53 pm Permalink
I say….. Drink, Drink and be Drunk, errrr Merry
15/11/2006 at 2:27 pm Permalink
bah, i never go to the bar by myself!
its all about going with people you know and enjoy!
taylor if you ever get your butt over to ottawa im going to take you to my favorite bar. its called Quinns, there are 12 tables and a bar, its TINY, and its got good music, friendly staff, and its within stumbling distance of my appartment.
i feel that it could be your type of place.